& distance means so littlewhen someone means so much
Friday, 30 March 2007 @ 13:14
My maid has this habit of not closing the door when she leaves my room. Rah so I shall go close my door now :/
Hahah okay, I've got plenty to blog about. And tons of pictures to upload cause I've finally found the time to transfer all the shots from my phone to the comp. Yayness :) This week has been tumultuous (I was about to use turmoil to describe the chaotic week but my Dad told me that turmoil can only be used on people :/ he act cheem only.) Haha anyway, yeah so this week isn't really great. Firstly, choir hasn't been exactly up to standard. I mean for the previous two practices (on Tuesday and Thursday). And with SYF round the corner, I can't help but worry. Argh. But I believe that Snchoir can do it :] We will stop being complacent and fight hard for the GwH ! Oh yes we can ! Yupp and secondly, I think I screwed up Bio test. It was an easy test, a test which one could unquestionably ace in. But but but, Lingjingthesmartie decided to spend only half an hour studying it the day before. Hence, I think I did badly for the test. Like honestly, I knew less than half of the Ecology questions and most of my answers were like, uh, common sensical ? Ahhhhh, I hope I pass :( Oh but the good news was that our class Amaths test was postponed, to some i-have-no-idea day. Yupp :D
(points to the left) HAHAHA. This is Toady Toes Kwan. She loves mojojo and her current hobby is imitating him/her. Okay I was kidding :] But look alike right ! <<<<<. By the way, Mrs Fung thought that Sam was crazy after she showed her her shower cap look. Teehee.
I LOVE MY TOAD PLENTY Y
Oh and yesterday was dearest Cinchy's birthday ! Happy Sweet Sixteen my dear :)
Haha sorry I'm lazy to rotate the picture :) But no worries ! Cinch still looks cute even though she's like kinda, uh slanted ? Haha ! :D
Actually there isn't a lot to blog about. Haha but I've got numerous pictures I want to upload. Hee, I'm feeling quite lazy though :) So, I shall do it later after I bathe. Later :]
Sometimes, you don't realise how much you care for someone until they are gone.
I don't know what to say... I can't really remember how the past two days went. Alright, perhaps I'm just unable to describe what really happened and how I really feel, now and then. But, I'll try. At least for the sweet part.
Adam Khoo had been great. Well to me, the first day was the best. It's not because the workshop got more boring. It was because on Thursday, everything was still normal, as it is. And I was still able to feel and take in things which the trainers were trying to convey to us. However, after Thursday, things changed, overnight. I wasn't able to concentrate on Friday. Yeah it was funny and all. I did enjoy the activities like speed reading and stuff, but I wasn't able to open up. It's like I felt numb. I just wanted to back away, into the shadows, and cry myself to death. But I know I can't. And it is something I won't allow myself to. So I was not able to feel the motivation on Friday. It just sucks when yknw that you're in a motivational workshop and yet you can't feel a thing, cause at that point of time what I needed wasn't motivation. Honestly, I don't even know what it was. At the very last part, when Gary speaked to us about our parents as he brought us through a visual walkthrough, everyone cried. Well at least mostly did. I didn't. Maybe because I succeeded in guarding my emotions. But the thing is, it never happened before. I was never able to control myself (the tears part). Perhaps it was because I couldn't feel anything at the point of time. Cause I didn't want to. I would have flooded the whole Mpr if the "emotional part" happened on Thursday instead of Friday. I didn't want to imagine what will happen if my parents' are gone. I didn't like the feel of losing someone I love. I fear death. And I was in trepidation. I squeezed my ears damn hard at the death and dying part. And even though I could still hear what Gary was talking about, nothing went in. I guess my heart did the job of repelling. But I understand where they were coming from. And I will apply the skills that I've learn during the past three days as much as possible. Anyway, it was kinda the same on Saturday. My mind switched on and off. Charm, Manda and I left early since we all had something on. And since my parents were not coming, I didn't see the need to stay although I know the closing ceremony was extremely important. By the way, I heard that it was stupendous. Adam Khoo really does wonders.
Yupp okay, I shall not mention about what happened. And I just want to thank those who had been there for me for the past two days. They were mainly, Manda, Twinne, Gretel and Toad. I wouldn't have pull it through without you guys. And to Manda, Thanks for the shoulders :) although I know its kinda disjoint now. I'm really really apolegetic for causing so much worry. And here's a big Thank You to those who've comforted me in one way or another. The truth is, I feel really bad to the people who've approached me and asked me what happened. All I could say was, "Nothing" or "I'll be alright". It's not that I want to deceive or anything but I thought it'll be a lot better if I took all this alone. Yupp, I'll be alright. At least, I'll picture myself to be.
Basically, this was how the past two, three days went. I won't be in school tmr though. Ahhhhhhhhh okay, I shall go now. Bubbsy.
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels.
I.am.so q37try3q98tyhw4eol9le3ig piss. Why ? Cause some Sec one girl doesn't know her limits. Like seriously ! Showing attitude when you are only a Sec One ? I don't mean that Sec Ones cannot show attitude but they should not. I mean like hello ? The Green badges are a nice bunch of people and you ? Ohmigosh are you like some kind of black sheep among them ? Get a life dude. GET A LIFE (if you even have one). And stop rolling eyes at people cause trust me, one day, your eyes will just get stuck up there to your eyelids and never come down. You think you very cool isit ? Can sing well huh ? Oh please you didn't even get through the first freaking audition. And what excuse did you give ? "I got sore throat." Rocks. You know what ? I heard you that day and you sound exactly the same as today. Sore throat ? My ass. More of sore eyes. Oh and you still want to participate in SYF ? Hello ? So what you're from Primary Choir ? There are plenty others from primary choir too. What makes you think that you're superior and what makes you think that you can get into SYF (as a Sec One) when you cannot even sing in tune !? Polish up your skills girl, and if you continue to keep that attitude of yours, I swear you'll suffer like shiate. Oh one last thing. Do improve on that appalling posture of yours. Oh and your expression too (it's irksome). Just be a normal plebian AND STOP TRYING TO GAIN ATTENTION by showing others your astounding rolling eyes skill. Save stupid questions for yourself and cease trying to be smart. Gosh, you really suck.
Hahahha I feel better now. I've complained to like almost everyone about the Sec one girl whom I've just introduced (above) :) Honestly, I don't mind disclosing her name BUT I shan't cause I think I've already made it so blatantly obvious. Or we can play Hangman :] Her name is C___SS_. Woot.
Hee okay I should stop complaining. Anyw, had Adamn Khoo today. But I missed like half of the session cause had to leave for choir. The trainers were hilarious and I actually do feel motivated, in one way or another. And I agree that most of the things they said were true. About how people achieve success if they picture themselves doing so, and also the other way around. Oh and the part about dreams. And many more lah. I felt the stories were rather exaggerated, even though they were engaging & extremely gelastic. Oh & I heard that they are gonna make us cry like shiate tmr. I shall arm myself with tissue paper then :)
Ohohohoh ! Our choir costume has finally arrive :] It wasn't as bad as i thought but it was definitely longer than i thought. Thats for sure. I need to practise walking in the gown with my heels badly. They say i walk like a man. Gosh, i'm dead.
All I wana do is find a way back into loveI can't make it through without a way back into love
Wednesday, 21 March 2007 @ 16:08
Found this on Youtube ! It's from Music and Lyrics. The movie is great, go catch it if you haven't :) The pictures in this video aren't really clear though. But the song is spellbinding !
Cora: I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
Alex: I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
Chorus: [Both] All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh
Cora: I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
Alex: I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions
Chorus: [Both] All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Cora: There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
Both: All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Hello ! I've moved :) Try guessing for the URL ! I'll give stickers if you manage to guess correctly :] Haha or you can just ask me for the url teehee.
I'm breaking all the angles,I'm falling down in circles
@ 12:14
I think my metabolism rate is going downhill. I wonder what will happen if it drops to zero. I guess it'll mean that every single drop of oil I take in will be deposited inside my body as fats. Every single one, since it cannot be broken down or synthesized if my metabolism rate is zerohero. So every calorie counts. Haha okay, that was just a random thought. A weirdddd random thought :)
Anyw, Mandathesickpig is not in school today again. Well maybe not again but yeah she's not in school. Haha wonder why. I bet she's like sick or something. Stupid sick pig >:[ And the thing is, she never reply my message. Hmpf, just like that. Just don't want to reply gah. So school was okay. Chinese Kaocha kind of sucked though. The comprehension was so bloody hard. We had to infer most of the answers ourselves since they can't be found in the passage. Disgusting. Oh and i wrote 100 words for the summary instead of 80. Rocks. The image of my pathetic going-to-be one digit summary mark is floating in my head now. Gosh :( Screw Higher Chinese.
Okay I should stop emoting over Chinese now. Haha. Yupp, so after school, went to Macs and then to tuition with Twinnie. Tuition was alright I guess. I was feeling rather groggy after all the Organic Chem and Eggspermshit though. Waited outside her house for my Dad and both of us got stung by irritating mosquitoes. I'm still itching :( Thank God we had our EXTREMELY COOL CLASS JACKET on :) It acted as a rain/mosquito protector :] Haha so we hurry hopped on to the car when Daddy arrived. Then went to TPY to return uhh, VCDS/DVDS. I WAS FINED :( Eight bucks okay. EIGHT BUCKS >:( it was actually 4 dollars but because I rented a total of two, I had to pay twice the amount. Gah, I'm broke. B for broke.
So after that, went home. Twinnie ate dinner at my house ! Haha and I introduced my special yummy chilli to her :) We wanted to watch Hana Yori Dango (Liu Xing Hua Yuan Jap version) BUT BUT BUT BUT, it was in Jap. With Chinese subtitles of course. But we didn't enjoy reading subtitles (what more our chinese suck), so we ended up playing the Computer ! Haha, the ultimate kill-time creation of mankind. Yupp browsed through people's blog, friendster and etc. Damn fun damn fun -looks at Charm. Hahahahahahahaha :D
Yupp, so thats all for today. Nothing much. I like simple days :) Oh and I'm really worried for NAPFA. I'll flush myself down the toilet bowl if I don't get a gold this year. So here's my aim: Standing broad jump B; Shuttle run A; Sit and reach C; Pull ups A; Sit ups A; 2.4 C. Yay then in that case, I can just scrape pass a gold :) Adam Khoo tmr !
It's the worst feeling in the world. To love and hate someone, all at the same time. & it's hard to wach things change, when all you want, is for them to stay the same. It's funny, but stupid, how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy, when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. & when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go, and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you never know where to start. When you want really someone in your life, but all you do is push them farther away. It's hard to think back to how things used to be, and look at it now. And then to realize how things are different, and how they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much of your time thinking about it.
this person posted our performance at Kallang Theater last year on Youtube. haha i got this form Yongzhen's Msn nick. oh anyw i think the conducter was Ms Melody ! haha okay random post. i'm going on intensive Youtube surfing now. byeeeeeeee :]
It's like you had somehow thrown me a lifeline, without even meaning to.
& to let go right now, mean't falling back into the past, letting me drown.
my heater is taking forever to heat up :( hence, while waiting for the i-have-no-idea-how-long-it-will-take heater to starting heating, i shall blog ! okay lets talk about yesterday's NTU performance. mmmhmm, well i must say it went rather well. haha despite the fact that i had trouble walking naturally in my heels. everyone was like "Lee Ling jing you better not fall". alright, i admit it was rather dangerous, but since it's the last time i'm wearing that (for a concert) so i guess it was okay :) speaking about last-time, the Sec Fours will not get to wear our cheena-waiteress-like bright red uniform anymore :( yesterday's performance was kinda like a farewell to our uniform. oh well, srsly hope that the choir will look good in the purple one :) the concert, on the hold, was okay. choir did well and even though it wasn't perfect, we were all quite satisfied :] wanted to stay throughout the whole concert but Papps came early so i've got to go home early :( AND I DIDN'T GET TO TAKE POPCAM WITH LOU & YINGS. they sucked. they took without me. HOW COULD THEY RIGHT ?! :(((((((((
alright lets progress to today's workshop. the choir was small. inconsiderably puny. we only have 35 people so the volume was kinda uh, like halfed. haha. but we managed to pull through the workshop ! like yay :) Sakura Sakura sounded rather unstable (like Mr Quay said), we didn't have enough manpower to stagger breathe haha. Jaakobin was pretty fine too :] all in all, we did well. and i'm proud of Choir. we'll continue to work hard towards our GWH :D
i realised that most of the CCAs are currently having a rather hard time, be it Performing Arts or Sports. well, hope we'll pull through this ominous period as soon as possible :)
after workshop, went out with Manda, Andrea & Belinda. caught the movie Music & Lyrics which was superb. the songs were really intriguing and omgsh it was damn funny. Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore had great chemistry :) ohkay so anyw, after the show we went eat Gelare. then we went home. okay to be specific, i was the only one who went home. HAHAHAHAHH. oh and i bought another pair of clip-ons ! the purpose of that pair of clip-ons was to make me look 16 and above cause the initial movie we wanted to catch was the Rain one (i forgot the name). BUT THE PERSON DIDN'T WANA LET US PURCHASE THE TIX CAUSE MANDA LOOKED TOO CHILDISH HAH :D teehee.
alright i think i can go bathe now. have to do tuition homework later rah. i shall sleep early today. this morning's eye bags were like brobdingnagian (HAHA SO CHEEM RIGHT). okay i'm off.
we live in a world of worse-case scenarios. we cut ourselves off from hoping for the best, because too many times, the best doesn't happen. but every now and then, something extraordinary occurs. and suddenly, best case scenarios seem possible. every now and then, something amazing happens. and, against our better judgement, we start to have hope.
Jing the ultimate has finally made a Haloscan ! i spent like half and hour or so figuring the Haloscan thing out :] i shall change the layout and stuff as soon as i get use to it. meanwhile, please feel free to comment :D yay !
Just because you've paint a picture, doesn't mean it'll fit it's frame.
hello world did you miss me ? okay i'm back. from a really long vacation. anyw, i'm starting to blog again as there is this HUGE event which i really need to blog about. and Winson Leonard Spencer Churchill Louisa Jeanne Tan Han Lin (the new cool name i got for her) just made me feel very bad about not blogging. she went, "& you never even blog about Charm's birthday ?!?!?!?" haha see what an evil person she is ;) okay yay i'm going to blog about Twinnie's birthday ! so while i'm waiting for Imagestation to finish uploading the 98 pictures we took on the 4th of March, i shall blog about other stuff first :]
school was unusually quiet today. and i srsly think its because of the absence of the Secones & twos. haha they had to do Elearning at home instead of normal lessons today. okay i don't really like Elearning cause A) the stuff always take extremely long to load and B) you just end up stonning infront of the PC all day. so for the very first time, Hurray for lessons :] the issueing of PPR was yesterday and i srsly have no idea how to tell my Dad about my revolting results. this time really break record lah, not funny. I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THE CHEM AND EMATHS TEST ! WTH. due to my one MC and one VR, i have to include my Lit (a D7) in my L1R5 :( which means, byebye 10+ and hello 20++++++++. triple rahs. i should just go jump down and die now; just die. si diao. sayonara. zaijian. hmpf, okay i'll get over it. & I'M GOING TO DO WELL NEXT TERM. i don't care i don't care ! my determination's strong :]
i'm really good at self-motivating :)
okay i know this might sound a little confusing but this whole entry actually disappeared just now when i published it (cruses Blogger) so i only have the first half left and the rest is gone :( so i'll just re-upload the pictures. cause i really need to go bathe now :]
on a lighter note, went shopping with Yinglewingle & Winson Leonard Spencer Churchill Louisa Jeanne Tan Han Lin (haha i copied and paste) after school :] the initial plan was to catch Dream Girls, but due to lousy Cinema timings, we came to a conclusion that we'll have to watch Dream Girls in our dreams. HAHAHAH okay so we didn't catch the movie. cabbed down to town & ate subway. Wo ai meatballs. (NOTE: entry was cut off here -_-)
haha so anyw, here are the pictures we took using my Webcam today :)
Yay okay the uploading has completed ! see i took only a few days to upload the pics :] NOT VERY LONG OKAY. i'm efficient ! so you guys better not label me as 'slow' anymore :) i've captioned every single one of them tooooooooooo !
pictures say a thousand words so i shall not blog anymore. for more information, please visit http://mylife-thestory.blogspot.com :] yay okay mission accomplished ! oh anyw, Photobucket is like kinda screwed right now. i think the management restarted the programme :( all my pictures hosted by Photobucket are not showing anymore rah. haha okay, shall go now. my contacts are hurting like shiate >:(
