A mess of a dreamer, with the nerve to adore you.

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Iamanythingbutbrave I'm deying gravity, and you can't pull me down The Butterfly Effect It's okay to be a little broken All we have to do is pack & go I miss the sound of your voice, the silence scream... Slipping through my fingers all the time She's secretly hoping Always, always & Forever Love Lockdown

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My world is spinning round and round,
I'm feeling so confused.
For after all that's happened,
My heart's still feeling bruised.

And when I think about the past,
And looked at what I've gained,
I wonder if it's worth the fight,
My hurt still remained.

I want my wounds to heal again,
I want to be alright.
But by myself I just can't bear
To stand alone and fight.

And I wish someone could stand with me,
And help me to survive.
So, if my fire of hopes run down
They'll keep the flames alive.

Today has got to be the worse day of my life, second after the 23 of March 2 years ago. But like always, people are here to make it all better, be it faraway or close beside. They have kept my flames alive when it was diminishing by the second.

This entry is a shoutout to those who were there today and to those who I know, always have been. Special mention to Samantha, Fel, Momo & most importantly Lihxy :) I honestly think I would have jumped off a bridge if not for you all. And I sincerely apologise for all the unnecessary worries I have caused. I cannot guarantee that I'll be okay but I'll definitely be better, stronger and more sensible. Some people spend a lifetime searching for friends who can be silent with them in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with them in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with them the reality of their powerlessness. And I'm glad that I don't have to spend a lifetime searching cause, I've already found such people, such awesome friends.